how to stop being obsessed with the next thing to buy

Stop going on instagram. Or go on instagram and scroll quickly past the advertisements for new clothes. I love buying new clothes. I love researching clothes and finding deals. I love going on ebay and poshmark and trying to find something really expensive for cheap. I like reading product descriptions. I like looking at colors and planning future outfits.

All of this leaves me sitting and waiting for the next thing. It has me in a constant state of expectation. And if my expectations are constantly being met. I’m disappointed.

So I have to stop going to the websites where I shop at. I have to not look at the “New Arrivals” I have to be happy for the clothes I have. I have to or I get to realize that I have more than enough clothes, for now. I’m not going to go naked. I have enough clothes to make an outfit for just about every potential scenario. I don’t need to get the same pair of pants in a different color because it will make a different outfit work better.

I just have to stop looking at things I want to buy. When I’m looking at things I want to buy I quickly convince myself that I need these things. Then when I don’t get the things I need. I feel like my needs are not being met and that is a short circuit to freaking out and doing more and more desperate stuff.

I am an all or nothing person. I can’t or I haven’t been able to yet, figure out how to passively enjoy things. I’m all in or all out. So for now abstinence to looking at clothes is the order of the day. At least for now. It’s becoming very hot and I might need a new polo.